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Now That I'm Younger

by Othersproof

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1.
The Heir 04:25
The heir to the throne His hair tangled in his crown The heir to the throne Not just anybody’s son The heir to the throne The most powerful of pawns It took the whole village to restrain her It took all of the bishop’s will to pray for her It took all of the cop shop to detain her It took her a whole night to kill the king Unbeknownst to the heir The others - the others were ordered not to interfere The others were ordered not to interfere just yet An identity he has repressed But his power must - must not be suppressed Must not be suppressed He whispers, he whispers, as he prepares to attest I don’t recognize your authority I don’t recognize your authority I don’t recognize your authority I don’t recognize your authority I’m the ruler of my own democracy I’ve always prioritized my king’s city I’m the author of my own fantasy With a lawless, lawless jury to satisfy The heir was brought, was brought to testify Heir to the land From every branch to every plant From the laws of nature to the laws of science From the laws of the realm to the laws of Man The heir to the throne Preparing to stand trial The heir to the throne Not just anybody’s son The heir to the throne His ruling has to be put on hold The whole village came down to bear witness The whole clergy came down in order to judge But no matter what he’ll never confess And thus the heir’s crimes will never surge Unbeknownst to the heir The others - the others were ordered not to interfere The others were ordered not to interfere just yet An identity he has repressed But his power must - must not be suppressed Must not be suppressed He whispers, he whispers, as he prepares to attest I don’t recognize your authority I don’t recognize your authority I don’t recognize your authority I don’t recognize your authority I’m the ruler of my own democracy I’ve always prioritized my king’s city I’m the author of my own fantasy With a lawless, lawless jury to satisfy The heir was brought, was brought to testify Heir to the land From every branch to every plant From first to second class citizens From unpunished guilt to blamed innocence
2.
The hardest part may be, may be to survive But there’s nothing, nothing like staying alive The hardest part may be, may be to survive But there’s nothing, nothing like staying alive A dance that spreads a sweeping fire around us And soon enough, it’s the fire itself that’s dancing And earning your courage is the soaring chorus As the burning is never the ending The fire dances over my skin Not everyone has the aspiration To be everyone else’s inspiration On the brink of anticipation I always, always grow impatient I approach every, every new dawn Never knowing who I’ll be at the end of the day I welcome every, every newborn Never knowing who will claim them away I approach every, every new dawn Never knowing who I’ll be at the end of the day I welcome every, every newborn Never knowing who will claim them away The dawn don’t know the night The dawn don’t know it’ll come back after the night The hardest part may be, may be to survive But there’s nothing, nothing like staying alive Forgiveness is the biggest power I possess Power me through this act of forgiveness Living through their regrets - deploy The biggest power your possess, rejoice Wasn’t I the best part of the conversation? And that’s the moment upon which words failed us And although I won’t hide my ambitions I inhabit my contradictions I approach every, every new dawn Never knowing who I’ll be at the end of the day I welcome every, every newborn Never knowing who will claim them away I approach every, every new dawn Never knowing who I’ll be at the end of the day I welcome every, every newborn Never knowing who will claim them away The dawn don’t know the night The dawn don’t know it’ll come back after the night The hardest part may be, may be to survive But there’s nothing, nothing like staying alive
3.
Close your eyes and accept to be a witness Close your eyes and accept to be a witness I don’t know how I’m gonna do But I’m gonna rewrite, I’m gonna rewrite What they craved for, this narrative After all, weren’t they made to believe? I don’t know how I’m gonna do But I’m gonna survive, I’m gonna survive The way they paved for another scandal An exclusive reveal they hurried to send all The ambition and the ego Against misinformation and its echo The ambition and the ego Against misinformation and its echo A word aiming for trust A paper craving for ink A mind surrounded by the lust Of changing the way you think You must write your way into heaven’s kingdom You must write your way out of those articles You must write your pain away into a brand new song Must not make the headlines of the Coharnawll Chronicles You must write your way into heaven’s kingdom You must write your way into pieces of fiction Come feast on our natural curiosity Come pick our brains for new information Come get your fix from the city Feed your mind with anticipation Close your eyes and accept to be a witness Close your eyes and accept to be a witness I don’t know how I’m gonna do But I’m gonna tell another lie, tell another lie Publishing one last headline Which no one could read between the lines We don’t know how we’re gonna do But we’ll meet the deadline, we’ll meet the deadline We will only keep content that’s sensitive Strong reactions is our only incentive I’m the editor in chief, the editor in chief And I will expose all of your mischiefs! I’m the editor in chief, the editor in chief And I will expose all of your mischiefs! A word aiming for trust A paper craving for ink A mind surrounded by the lust Of changing the way you think You must write your way into heaven’s kingdom You must write your way out of those articles You must write your pain away into a brand new song Must not make the headlines of the Coharnawll Chronicles You must write your way into heaven’s kingdom You must write your way into pieces of fiction Come feast on our natural curiosity Come pick our brains for new information Come get your fix from the city Feed your mind with anticipation I could no longer relate When everything was up for debate I could no longer relate When everything was up for debate You must not be saved Amongst the other lives In any one of our archives
4.
I own a box, within which time stops I now carry a heart which can break time and space apart I’ve caused a paradox, and now the world erupts I now carry a heart which can break time and space apart If I can’t visualize my lover Must I travel through the years? If I can already remember What hasn’t happened in the past years If my body belongs in the future Must I return to tomorrow’s Earth? She said we belonged to time More than we belonged to our bodies It crashes into us and possesses us What do we say? When we must not escape our own lifetime Regardless of how far we travel Through endless light, endless dust I strongly feel love for this world In spite of all of your faults I strongly care for this planet In spite of those who’ve damned it Traveling to a past Or a future era Learning to tell the difference Between shadow and penumbra And the difference between - our body and our shadow Between our home and its suburbs Guided by all the love that lurks Maybe the only way to survive the collapse Is to go way, way back into the past Time-traveler lover, time-traveler lover Time-traveler lover, time-traveler lover I own a box, within which time stops I now carry a heart which can break time and space apart I’ve caused a paradox, and now the world erupts I now carry a heart which can break time and space apart Despite being in the same vessel, the same ship Nothing could make me handle a relationship I found it would defragment my spirit, my soul So I escaped through this vortex, this black hole She said, remember - past the blackness Towards the core - there are all kinds of colors What do we say? When we’ve reduced ourselves to a heartbeat In a time traveling capsule in orbit How can we ever be free? When we can’t ever avoid - the future crashing into us Until there’s none of it left Traveling to a past Or a future era Learning to tell the difference Between shadow and penumbra And the difference between - our body and our shadow Between our home and its suburbs Guided by all the love that lurks Maybe the only way to survive the collapse Is to go way, way back into the past I’ve never been in love But my heart aches all the same Time-traveler lover, time-traveler lover
5.
The atmosphere left behind the soil At the approach of the others, you recoiled As the pressure left remaining organs to boil The mothership went back home alone You’re always alone with everyone No chance, no chance, no chance of an exchange You’re always alone with everyone No way of giving them what they want - - - Alone with everyone No matter where you are Alone with everyone No matter where you are Who can understand - What those two disorders feel like? When even the professionals don’t want to recognize And the work you do isn’t legitimized And the violent feelings inside Only seem to double up in size When you’ve milked me, I’ll be a mother When you’ve spilled it, you’ll be a father What you’ve built in me Can’t ever outgrow its fate When you’ve killed me, I’ll be a planet When you’ve freed me, I’ll be another’s puppet I may be giving you too much credit When your silence is the only thing I seemed to elicit The atmosphere left behind the soil At the approach of the others, you recoiled As the pressure left remaining organs to boil The mothership went back home alone You’re always alone with everyone No chance, no chance, no chance of an exchange You’re always alone with everyone No way of giving them what they want - - - Alone with everyone No matter where you are Alone with everyone No matter where you are When you’ve milked me, I’ll be a mother When you’ve spilled it, you’ll be a father What you’ve built in me Can’t ever outgrow its fate When you’ve killed me, I’ll be a planet When you’ve freed me, I’ll be another’s puppet I may be giving you too much credit When your silence is the only thing I seemed to elicit
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There’s no word to be spoken Only the sigh of a dreamer left broken And if you hit rock bottom And the suffering feels like home Think of recover, regardless This is where you come from I need fight to enable my feelings I need to love something I don’t understand I must want something I’d never have if not on this path Or else I’ll never stop romanticizing the past God puts you on these paths So you can express your way out of your past Now that I’m younger, I might Start doing the things I was told Now that I’m younger, I might Start embracing growing old Now that I’m younger The old guard must retire Now that I’m younger Short lifetimes shine brighter And if you hit rock bottom And the suffering feels like home Think of recover, regardless This is where you come from There’s no word to be spoken Only the sigh of a dreamer left broken I need night to escape my feelings The awakening was brutal The sleep disassembled from its loophole The more I sleep, the less I wake The more I dream, the higher the stakes Back in those days, I was only ever getting younger Now my 20’s have long since retired Now my 20’s have long since retired Now that I’m younger, I might Start doing the things I was told Now that I’m younger, I might Start embracing growing old Now that I’m younger The old guard must retire Now that I’m younger Short lifetimes shine brighter And if you hit rock bottom And the suffering feels like home Think of recover, regardless This is where you come from Youth water unravels from my heart Floods through and colors my alien blood Now I’m growing backwards Youth water unravels from my heart Floods through and colors my alien blood Now I’m growing backwards Now as it ends, my - Story may finally make sense
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I feel so conflicted Is it allowed, is it prohibited? Which judgement will be inflicted? Oh God fearing can be so addictive No matter the disease It all looks the same No matter the promise No one can make such claim An earth with no center A body without desire I get attached to the most - incongruous of frivolities I can’t let go of a place that - may have given me serenity Even though by now its positive effects Can’t seem to be reunited To bring me back to the way I felt then The memory comes again and again Everything comes to me, to me in a maze I carefully, carefully unfold the package Everything comes to me, to me in a maze I instinctively reorder each and every page Regardless of the interior damage Leave a beauty mark Regardless of how close to the edge Recover the beating of your heart Regardless of the interior damage Leave a beauty mark Regardless of how close to the edge Recover the beating of your heart And when you’re failed by your heart It will leave a beauty mark What you forbid yourself in the dark It will leave a beauty mark No matter the disease It all looks the same No matter the promise No one can make such claim An earth with no center A body without desire Everything comes to me, to me in a maze I carefully, carefully unfold the package Everything comes to me, to me in a maze I instinctively reorder each and every page Everything comes to me, to me in a maze I carefully, carefully unfold the package Regardless of the interior damage Leave a beauty mark Regardless of how close to the edge Recover the beating of your heart Regardless of the interior damage Leave a beauty mark Regardless of how close to the edge Recover the beating of your heart
8.
Swimming, swimming in my own blood I don’t care who I cut I don’t care whether I’m hurt My blood becomes static As I hear those footsteps in the attic My life is stepping into the dramatic As a chill freezes the atmosphere into the arctic Swimming, swimming in my own blood I don’t care who I cut The high road quicker than the shortcut Give me, give me your heart I’m human, human, human at last Own me, own me fast My master is calling me back Violent, violent sleep Toothless, toothless, toothless dreams The itch was in a place The itch was in a place I couldn’t reach Violent, violent sleep Toothless, toothless, toothless dreams The itch was in a place The itch was in a place I couldn’t reach The nature of a jealous naysayer I always knew I’d not go down as a team player The nature of a jealous naysayer I want the gods to answer my prayer Swimming, swimming in my own blood I don’t care who I cut I don’t care whether I’m hurt So many rooms but no window, no window anywhere We run, we run, we run through them all But can’t ever seem to find an exit Swimming, swimming in my own blood I don’t care who I cut The high road safer than the shortcut Give me, give me your heart I’m human, human, human at last Own me, own me fast My master is calling me back Violent, violent sleep Toothless, toothless, toothless dreams The ache was in a place The ache was in a place I couldn’t detect Violent, violent sleep Toothless, toothless, toothless dreams The ache was in a place The ache was in a place I couldn’t detect The nature of a jealous naysayer I always knew I’d not go down as a team player The nature of a jealous naysayer I want the gods to answer my prayer
9.
Winter 03:43
When I attach my wounds to old chains That’s when I detach myself from the pain When I attach my wounds to old chains That’s when I detach myself from the pain Winter says, I’ve been a bad sister Winter says you must forgive her Winter needed a soul to protect In her arms, you’d always recover regardless Winter needed the cold to covet Warmth from a body that nevertheless came heartless Winter shared with me The wonder of being a songwriter Winter told me, I won’t survive out there Winter said, we do not evolve, we just enrich our souls Winter said to me, they disabled the option To be happy in me How much do thoughts weigh? What do our forgotten memories say? One of my most painful memories Was the first time I told her my secret But I’ll never forget That shared night of unrest When the moonlight kept us awake When I attach my wounds to old chains That’s when I detach myself from the pain When I attach my wounds to old chains That’s when I detach myself from the pain How much do thoughts weigh? What do our forgotten memories say? One of my most painful memories Was the first time I told her my secret But I’ll never forget That shared night of unrest When the moonlight kept us awake Winter’s first cold - will warm our souls Make us feel safe - protect us whole Winter’s first cold - will warm our souls Make us feel safe - protect us whole

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That's the other half of the 'Can See the Damage, But Not the Pleasure' album. Thank you for listening, hope you'll enjoy some of it.

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released October 6, 2023

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Electronic indie-pop project from France. Released quite a few different albums that you're welcome to check out on here.

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